Carcass

A player by own claim
eager to be embraced
longing for a conquest

Cold and distant
open arms
to weak to resist
his advance
laying cold

felt nothing
My heart is dead

my flesh still walks and feeds
Cannot feel anything anymore
all my dreams are dark
full of violence and revenge

what am i ?
wandering earth with no place to stay
I am the unwanted

He can only see a carcass
that might look alive
but it´s rotting inside.

Want, aspire and desire

As the lyrics of a bad song
I long for you
I want you..not because I need you or ever will
I want you..It´s a capricious feeling
I want you..yes, I know, I have repeat it three times..I mean it
I could promise you anything
you could be the one
there are so many obstacles
there are so many mermaids on rocky edges
there is the distance of your shores
and tempest on my sea
My ship might not reach your shore
though that was my intention, all along
if you have sailor´s heart and a lover in every port
say the words, and unleash my trembling hope
I am not keen on Self flagellation anymore
Tell me to take a hike
and I´ll never knock on your door again
Tell me to stay
and I shall stay
But do not, and I repeat, do not
Expect me to wait with anxiety for your call
every time you go missing for a day or two
every time, you have time or a sudden inclination for my company
I take my endeavour seriously
I can not coerce your affection
but I can demand respect for mine.
It is now or never.
I dare you!

Ever beautiful

Evelyn , Evelyn
your name sounds like angels´ chants
ever beautiful
full of grace and charm
If your mouth could honor me
by articulating those wonderful words
of never more, never to hear your name, never more
I would be delighted to show you the door
Evelyn, Evelyn
You have string on his heart
You forgot about the milk and sugar once
oh, catastrophe
you broke his heart all over again
Silly and careless a goddess cannot be
you have shown your wrath
you have shown your magnificence
now I beg you,
show me your absence
as a sign of mercy to human kind.

Confused

I looked at him
and I saw too much
he bend, he sat, he talked
I felt confused
a mix of I need to have him
and I fear to have him
I wanted to tell him
what I felt then but
it´s so confusing even now
it´s too intense
I don not know him
only time can tell
perhaps he is crazy
perhaps I am the crazy one.
I have a wobbly bookcase
that always will remind me.

Easy

You call me easy
a floozy on the loose
was I too needy?
was I too fast to give  it all?
Perhaps, I was too eager
to be loved
Yes, maybe it's all my fault
I give and they take
but I get no love in return
was I too needy?
was I too fast to give  it all?
Perhaps, I was too eager
to be loved
it's comic or tragic
the harsher the critic
the lower the morals to stand on
like I did it all alone...

My sweet darling

From the first moment I saw you

I fell in love like never before

You have a way to say my name

half whisper and half prayer

You have a way to say anything

anything at all and make it all, so true

You have a way to stare at me

make me feel naked and pure

You have a way, your way

to make life beautiful.

You´re the greatest

You´re the one

You´re everything, I have ever want.

One night

One night, he came
from far away
to make me smile
oh, yes
I was his lost princess
and he opened every door for me
oh, god
If I could do it all over again
I would have kissed him
not at the end but at the beginning
I would have lived that night intensively
I would have told him
that he was my dream
funny, smart and polite
a gentleman all the way
sigh..
it was just that one chance
he made me happy
he left, never to be heard again
for one night
I was his lost princess
and life was great.