So called sane

Sloppy hair

shabby dressed

she walks around

as nobody cares

talks to herself

cries and shout

no one knows her

nobody cares

it is just one of many

insane souls

fully loaded with the pity

of some

so called sane.

Insane obsession

multi-faced one obsession

One thought takes over

repeats itself infinitely

write,write,write it out

as it could leave my mind.

worthy of fear,so intense

every minute must whisper

that name.

unstoppable compulsion

try ,try , desperade

tame it somehow

more, more, more

slowly devour

one thought

shout in the dark

must calm down!

must be good now

make peace with destiny

C'est la vie

but oh no!

mind keeps dragging

insanity

exhausted in tears

please let me live.



Soon

"The hunter and the red fox"

Two worlds clashing by accident.                                                 

Pretender

Hypnotize himself
creates his world
made out of words
happy, brilliant,succesful
repeats to himself
wish I had this talent
to create my own reality
to hypnotize myself numb
perhaps might help  a joint
'cos my sadistic mind
can't be fool
at least not by this fool.

Fire without smoke

As the alarm went off
walk out,  sigh
scattered sheeps
far insight
catch your smile
you're fine
shouldn't doubt
my woes projected
you're fine
turning your back
walking further
even more from  me.

It hurts

It hurts
Knowing that'll miss you all my life
Knowing that I hurted you deep
Knowing that you despise me
It hurts
Feels like my chest is wide open
the knife is still inside
Feels like the deepest sorrow
that does not fade
It hurts
Simply 'cos there is no way to fix it
Simply 'cos memories hit hard
Simply 'cos love can not be denied.

Train station

Old station surrounded
all the freaks around
alcoholics having their morning booze
the insane sitting by
same inmigrants standing aside
masses coming and going
bees in the hive
I'm passing by
rushing to somewhere
I see your face in the crown
you're always there in my eyes
no time to stare
allucination must wait.

Addiction

Trembling violently

obsessed with one thought

longing for my next shot

to fix my world

to make all gone

to make me whole

the rush ,I long

the hive,mermaids' song

feels divine.

a wild, long kiss

even just the sight of him

he is all I need

the air I need to breath

to stay alive.

Always late

Too late we are
on our own device
for love departs
floppings cards

time waits  no more
as we are strangers
to the clicking clock
unwarned dangers

cards had shown
a rhime well known
our fate
as we are too late.

Better at night

I write better at night

as I fear to sleep

words just flow to you

like blood in the battle field

I write better at night

as I am terrified of dreams

that crawl into my bed,

serenity shead

dreams I shouldn't have

torture of seing

what it's for me denied.

I write better at night

attempting repeatly

exorcise through words

my wounded heart.

Hush

Hush, hush, powerful I am
can make a grown man hide
and be the last to leave
shed some tears
hush, hush, no discord
not a word.
feel so mighty
fear and tears,my tribute
paid every friday for a man
that cowardly hides
for fear to tears.
mighty of sore
do not wish to possess
but nevertheless I have.
So I shall pretend
that I have not seem
or hear that grey horse
ridden by the fearful
paying my tribute
in full.

No good or bad

Fangs grow and darkness show
as someone pull a discord
away  from our wish and demand
there is no good or bad
just different sides
ideas, views or desire
conflict arise
 as we can not avoid the clash
every side claims to be the right
Pride guides
leader and puppeteer in the war
popularity in high demand
everyone takes a side.

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Tears on the soup

As I finish my prayer
to thank for my meal
tears run down my cheek
straight to the soup plate
my salty tears make wholes
transparent drops of soul
my throat closes tied
soup is getting cold
and tears burn slow
carved lines in my face
what is wrong they ask?
why you cry?
I simply reply
I miss what love was
but sometimes
It just hurts to be alive.

A dream walking

Oh dream! my love
the sweet wine of your lips
the tender touch of your skin
fascinanting delights
offers I can't deny
you're a dream walking
dancing and laughing
I want to laugh with you
enjoy your glowing sight
forget the daily fight
sadness of regreat
all the misery of being alive
seem to fade away by your side.

Theatrical lies

Grey or black still a lie
white and innocent still a trap
tangled,simple, flat
needed,pityful,sad
evil, good or just bad
untruthful words come out
the show can not last
eventually the curtain will fall
the audience will leave
and there will be just one in the spotlight

I'll survive

It's like Gloria Gaynor sings
You'll survive
no doubts on that
You are tough
and determined
You'll survive
no doubts on that
open wounds will close
remaining only a shiny scar
foggy memories of the past
pilling in a hidden coner of your mind
I'll survive
no doubts on that
wounded and down
I'll stand up
laberiths can be deceitful
but I'll see my way out
I'll survive
no doubt on that
anyone can get around
breath in and out
You'll survive but I'll miss you
you have to move on but I'll keep you in my heart
I'll survive wishing It was different
and you would be mine.

19th April

A room full of buzzing sounds

crowded with people

all of them so bizarre

none of them could catch my eye

except you and your weird looking style

staring curious across the room

you never returned a glance

felt even more mesmerize

of your mysterious eyes

a whispering voice said no more

too late, captive I was

I couldn't be detached.

Fleeting moments

Wishing,longing, crying
feeling as sinking
in a great ocean of tears
feeling perpetual devotion
for the one with no regards
no regards towards me.
wishing,longing,crying
for moments that
shall  never be repeated
bitter sweet memories
of fleeting moments
carved on my mind
wishing longing,crying

Glory

I begged for good fortune
be release from my torture
and you come to me now!
oh! filthy wore
Now you come
when it doesn´t matter anymore
when my heart is lost
when I do not care anymore
I refused to pay for you then
and now you come for free
do I suppost to take you now?
smile and wave like a clown.

Bad and Crazy

I've been bad
need to stop
all my nasty ways
let you live again
let me poison myself
slowly with my words.
run away from me
leave me in the past
Be rational would be a clever advice.
Remember, I leave the door open
open if you decide to come
even if you'd never come.
Lines of my tormented mind
but more of all
my crazy heart.

Come back

I know you want to
lose your silly pride
turn your back, you'll see me smile
you read me every night
my words have turned into a balsam
or source of torment
completly self applied
with any regard
from good or wrong
come back to me
lets shake hands
forget the past
be mine platonically
be my knight.
Such a laugh
for a bloody minded guy
no poem or rhyme
could make you turn your back.

Smile

Self hypnosis, self brain wash
to every question, every sight
reply gladly, I am more than fine
smile widely
cheerful at any time
draw inside the line
eat your feelings out
pretend as anyone else
that life is flawless
I am not crazy
truth is absolute
good and resolute
someday, somehow
I'll believe it,
I'll wake up with a smile
and be more than fine.

One last kiss

Simple request of mine
a last kiss
stared at your at eyes
say our farewells
It can not end as it is
just stop and forget
My mind does not concieve it
my heart can not allow it
the burning flames of hell can wait
but my desire shall not be persuade
take my hand one last time
I know, you shake inside
when I whisper your name
when I say it's fine
let me take you in my arms
let my sooth your mind
kiss you softly or kiss you wild
no matter how, I long for you
even if it is one last time.

Burial

Tears of sorrow
walking slow
you say please, not a word
see me no more
one last glimpse
take the shovel
throw some dirt on me
I hardly can see
heavy soil pilling up
feel your pain and regreat
You have covered this hole
with me on it
six feet under of distance
do I hurt less now?
Run and cry like a child
or just accept that we are one.

Nightmares

Covered by the shadows
scary thoughts take shape
death,treason and departure
cry silently asleep
unable to open an eye
a series of misfortunes
one after another
a performer among others
dancing with a knife
caught in a fight
struggling to breath
as ends in tragedy.

My lost.

Surrounded by beauty

except one

full filling a dream

leaving behind my heart 

wishing to rejoice

instead of weeping

for my lost.

In another life

If there is another life,
I want you there.
if there is another dimension
where I could escape to
I want you there too.
I want you and no one else
you are my obsession,
without consessions.
the passion that makes
my blood boil
the inspiration moving my soul
the thought of you
makes words flow
as wild rapids in my head
It can't be undone on me.

All cost

Words are breath of the soul
as soil to a seed to grow
forgive my soul
for intruding your thoughts
I wanted to keep you at all cost
clearly see that my ill-manners
came across other matters
hundred times, I could beg
I could kneel down
put lilies in a crown
forgiveness will be never found.

No Longer Peace

if our issues were like equations
in which all the negatives could turn positive
our lives,our love would be posible
As life is life
promises are promises
nothing is as we wish to be
but as it is meant to be
vainly I tried
find a loop whole
where we could be
my battle is not over
though it seems
I can not longer find peace
or simply release
what you are to me
off you go
far from memories
to put behind my hurtful being.

Sob

The cold wind that blows
a brown jacket
black slippers
silver coins
a painting in the wall
a stranger on the bus
going to the city
everything in nothing
all  meaningful
memories of you
that keep torturing me
popping out unexpected
from a corner to me sob.

Standing outside

I can't close that door
I have crossed it
standing outside
but looking back keeps me alive
living in  memories
caresing clouds
I can't close that door
not if you are in the other side
tick,tock, tick, tock
I'm running out of time
it's going to close
crashing my fingers
splashing my blood on your face.

Don't go

No air when you are gone
No peace in my mind
No hope to be fine
just quietly moan
Don't desapear
this world is too big
to find you again
I beg you
fall in my knees
in tears
don't go.

Buh

In the crossroads
as ghost walks
so people run
unwanted freak
so it feels.
don't be polite
just shout in fear
hide your face
convince yourself
you have not seen
what it seems.

Gone

No trace
no voices in your place
you seem gone
I stared at your window
hoping you will come
it's just a sad yellowish building
it's just another sad day
it's just another lunatic passing by
it's just not knowing how to heal.
too much, too soon
too many shadows of doubts
no way to clear that up.