Forgiveness

Forgiveness is not likely to be given
for those who show no remorse
it's more likely for those
who in tears force
laws, and condole with the pitiful
I shall not lower myself
Intead I shall accept
Any injury, unfair insult
to bend my knee
infront of those who
I despise the most
Rather prefer the pit
the given title of prevaricator
witch and satan's kin
Offer my neck to executioner
gladly I shall perish
than uttering a word of praise
for those I depise the most.

Knocking the door

Closed doors of an empty house
Despite the looks
I knocked the door
even thou there was no response
I kept knocking
knocking at your door
Despite the looks
Even thou was no response
there were my foolish hopes
that kept me standing there
waiting in vain
to see a smile, to see your face
I kept knocking
knocking at your door
Despite the looks
even thou was no response
Until my knuckles began to bleed
and there was so much pain
Hope shrinked to the size of a coin
I could not longer go on.

River's Stone

A stone in the river
far more beautiful
than the rest
caught my eye
the sun's light made it stand
among so many
A stone in a pile
so unique needed to be mine
I reached for it
hold it in my hand
but the shine was gone
it was just a stone
that shine under water
because of the sun
It was just a stone
dry inside and cold
nothing more.

Whisper my name

Whisper my name,
I´ll be there
keep me alive
feed my dreams
dance through the night
long just one thing
above all means
embrace me
tight, with your words
whisper my name,
again and again
so I´ll be there
holding you
loving you.

I take my leave

I take my leave, sir
no tears in my eyes
certainly no grief
except the one
of having met you
believe you, kind
I take my leave, sir
hoping to easy
my broken pride
heal the wounds
that´ll proof
no deep enough
to bleed me out
I take my leave, sir
longing for retribution
to see you fall
perhaps no by this humble pawn
secretly rejoicing
on a future encounter
where I will have
the high hand.

Used to

Used to search
 in those eyes of yours
a glow, life inside of them
 beautiful and cold as they are
 used have a mesmerizing effect
 hoped to see
beyond their color
beyond the cold
beyond the facade
Waited too long
long enough to see that
 They are cold
 there is not a glow
 absolutly no beyond.

A collateral

Mr. time management
so cool and numb
unable to feel
unable to give without recieving
everything has price in the market
where the interest fluctuate
according to credit ratings
the client solvency
a collateral must always
back up a debt
No risk must be taken
all in control
same clothes
same lines
same trip
same people
same tired eyes
slave of profits
puppet of expectations
moving strings of moral
triggered by fear of being different.

Intoxicating and unkind

Two words that define him
in every  possible way
Cold and distant 
a touch of inmense pride
shinning in his eyes
like beautiful pearls
At times though it was not true
that underneath He could feel
It was just a mirage
a lie that I made myself believe
There is nothing to offer
there is nothing to take
Empty shell so alluring
intoxicating and unkind.

No direction

No signaled path
no direction
turning and turning
without control
lost myself
lost a love
I grief in silence
for everything
that now seems gone
I hear Chopin
and every note is a tear
every day is just a day
life goes on
though not me.

For a moment

It felt like time stopped
to be close to feel your warmth
enjoy some time in my head
picturing things that will never be
it felt like morphine
running down my veins
For a moment
It felt both ways
Until a cold bucket of water
hit my face
to wake me up, to see
that the only fool was me.