Alone like always

The time passes
tick, tock,
alone in a corner
like an old toy
forgotten there
today it feels
like the world
turned cold
colder than before
the time passes
tick, tock
still my voice echo
hello? hello?
anyone there.
dead silence replies.

In pieces

Tears run down my cheek

wish you were here

to talk to me

to make me laugh

to put my pieces together

but you are not

not a word

not a call

nothing at all

the distance is killing

your coldness

Tears run down my cheek

wish you were here

to tell me

I should not wait for you

because you do not care

simply I am nothing to you.

That word

Could I use that word?
it feels so odd
it feels so good
It feels like I need you
when I don´t
Could I use that word~?
your kisses are sweet
full of fire too.
I´m burning.
Could I use that word?
my body vibrates on your hands
I crumble in your embrace
every particle of me wants you
in me.
Could I use that word?
am I allowed?
to feel so much
to want you with such intensity

Another day

Today should be especial
it is a day to celebrate
to be happy and great
Today should be especial
but it is not
it is just another day
according to your calendar
no presents or cards to give
no love to send and recieve
just a day,
to work and fight in the field
But
Today should be especial
but it is not at the end
because you are not here
and you don't know
that just a call
just a visit
would have made the difference:

No word

Wonder
Cold and distant you became
the spark on your eyes is gone
don´t you fancy me anymore?
has your passion extinguished?
have you confused love with lust?
no word of you in so long
careless and mean
is this a sign?
Should I say goodbye?
should I turn my back on you?

Afraid

Tell me you don´t have fears

with those brown eyes

Tell me, you love me

and you´ll be there for me 

Tell me, I beg you please

that you need me as much as I do

Tell me, you´re sure

and you´ll hold my hand ´til the end

Tell me all that

and I´ll believe you

But if you can´t tell me any of that

just say, you´re not mine

and that you´ll never be

then I´ll walk away

and disapear on the dark

forever.

Like a dream that never happened.

Grave

Decaying on my grave
the sweet smell of oblivion
the peace of no longer being
the death snatched me
way longer than the worms
my soul started to grow restless
wanting to escape this fleshy jail
until the day my heart finally gave up
but I am still
I am not gone
I remain awake
in a dream, I can not longer wake up.

Done

It was a nightmare
it was the dark
it took over
it made me sad
I cried tears of fire
the price of faulted desire
it´s over and done
I smile at last.

Bursting bubbles

Every memory encapsule in a bubble
floating around shinning in the sun
I wish, I could burst them all
free from memories from a past
they are not real
they are made of soap
air, water..
They´ll fly, they´ll fade.

Away

The unreachable distance
miles and miles
between valleys
across mountains
he loves me
I know,
He wants to come back
but the import part is
that He left me without remorse.
when he comes back
it will be just you and me
he hopes.
my voice fades
my tears dry
I wish, my voice could reach you
I cannot be yours
I´ve tried to stitch your name
on my heart to keep you there
but my heart is too wild
he refuses to be tame
I must let you down
I might lose a friend
but I cannot deceive
the truth is in my eyes.

Lost

I´ve lost my way
the fog is too thick
there is no path to follow
there is no prince
there is no knight
there is no saviour
there is no sign
to guide my way out
In my knees and crying
where can I go?
I´m lost
I´m like a child again
I need guidance
I need to be embraced
I need to be cherish
I need to be loved
I´m all alone
I need to fend for my own.

The tall man in the train.

You were a dream

the reason I woke up

for months

all I wanted, it was to see your face

to breath the same air

You were my escape

my impossible prince

my heroe

my friend

I did nothing but insult you

and be mean with you 

I have never knew how to show

my love and appreciation

I write this with tears in my eyes

part of my heart, it will be always yours

even though you never wanted it

if I could touch you

hold your hand

kiss your lips

just once 

and then bury all this feelings inside of me

I would

but I know, that´s unthinkable for you

I am just a face a crowd

someone to feel sorry about

Remember, You are so especial to me

You are my idea of perfection

I love the sound your voice,

the color of your eyes

your smile when you talk about what you like

the black suit and blue shirt

your unshaved face

I could write poetry about you every day

but I won´t

I´m letting you go 

and you´ll never know

how beautiful and unique, you were for that girl in the train.

The shouting mad man

He shouts in the dark
curses and spit
He turns into an animal
full of thirst and anger
careful, careful
to fall for his act
he pretends to be tamed and nice
But deep inside
He knows
He´s wild and mean
like no other can be
his uglinest prevails
He tries to disguise
his true nature
But it´s there to be seen
little pieces of his fur all over the floor.
His foul smell tells it all.

Should I be content?

Hours and days
never a call
just a text saying hello
wishing a nice day
should it be enough?
should I be content?
leftovers on the table
just for me?
should I be content?
a little love
no kisses
no presents
should I be content?
is it that all you have to give?
Nothing but counted hours
a breakfast and goodbye
am I a beggar of love to you?
the pleasure of your company
should it be enough?

Let you go

They say, time heals
but some wounds will never close
some words will remain harsh
once you hurt someone
it cannot be undone
I wish, it was different
and you were the one
because you look like a dream
you feel like silk and clouds
but taste like hell at times
a hell, I already been through
a hell, I don´t want to come back
So please forgive me
 I take my leave
the smoke is too thick
the words are too little
kisses are too airy
Life is too short
there is simply no glue to stick us together.

Painting portraits

I keep painting portraits
color over color
shadows and lights
everything divided
I keep painting portraits
trying to figure them out
faces and thoughts
darkness and light
I keep painting portraits
one subject at the time
he is distant and cold
no light in his life
copy-paste of a past
left abandoned again
his life like smoke
slowly rising white
going up and up
til disapear.

Thousand times a day.

I repeat your name like a mantra
thousand times a day
you´re like a god, distant
looking down on me
judging me
pointing at me
my flaws and my ways
ashamed of me
so weak and needy
I vow to your voice
I need your touch
The pedestal were you find yourself
it is so high
Do you feel almighty?
Do you think, you´ll always be there?
I´ll find a way to close my eyes
remove my heart and believe no more
Can I?
can I?
is it possible to suffer no more?
loving you like my god
it´s harder than I though.

Tell me a lie

Tears roll down my cheek
dark clouds close the skies
the roof has a leak
tired of cats that fight

feelings so intense
as a burning sun
I wish to be found
nothing makes sense
the sound of your voice
give me no joy
stay around
haunt my thoughts
hold my hand
kiss me like only you can

tell me a lie
fake a smile
pretend to be my ally
before you fly.