Want, aspire and desire

As the lyrics of a bad song
I long for you
I want you..not because I need you or ever will
I want you..It´s a capricious feeling
I want you..yes, I know, I have repeat it three times..I mean it
I could promise you anything
you could be the one
there are so many obstacles
there are so many mermaids on rocky edges
there is the distance of your shores
and tempest on my sea
My ship might not reach your shore
though that was my intention, all along
if you have sailor´s heart and a lover in every port
say the words, and unleash my trembling hope
I am not keen on Self flagellation anymore
Tell me to take a hike
and I´ll never knock on your door again
Tell me to stay
and I shall stay
But do not, and I repeat, do not
Expect me to wait with anxiety for your call
every time you go missing for a day or two
every time, you have time or a sudden inclination for my company
I take my endeavour seriously
I can not coerce your affection
but I can demand respect for mine.
It is now or never.
I dare you!

Ever beautiful

Evelyn , Evelyn
your name sounds like angels´ chants
ever beautiful
full of grace and charm
If your mouth could honor me
by articulating those wonderful words
of never more, never to hear your name, never more
I would be delighted to show you the door
Evelyn, Evelyn
You have string on his heart
You forgot about the milk and sugar once
oh, catastrophe
you broke his heart all over again
Silly and careless a goddess cannot be
you have shown your wrath
you have shown your magnificence
now I beg you,
show me your absence
as a sign of mercy to human kind.

Confused

I looked at him
and I saw too much
he bend, he sat, he talked
I felt confused
a mix of I need to have him
and I fear to have him
I wanted to tell him
what I felt then but
it´s so confusing even now
it´s too intense
I don not know him
only time can tell
perhaps he is crazy
perhaps I am the crazy one.
I have a wobbly bookcase
that always will remind me.

Easy

You call me easy
a floozy on the loose
was I too needy?
was I too fast to give  it all?
Perhaps, I was too eager
to be loved
Yes, maybe it's all my fault
I give and they take
but I get no love in return
was I too needy?
was I too fast to give  it all?
Perhaps, I was too eager
to be loved
it's comic or tragic
the harsher the critic
the lower the morals to stand on
like I did it all alone...

My sweet darling

From the first moment I saw you

I fell in love like never before

You have a way to say my name

half whisper and half prayer

You have a way to say anything

anything at all and make it all, so true

You have a way to stare at me

make me feel naked and pure

You have a way, your way

to make life beautiful.

You´re the greatest

You´re the one

You´re everything, I have ever want.

One night

One night, he came
from far away
to make me smile
oh, yes
I was his lost princess
and he opened every door for me
oh, god
If I could do it all over again
I would have kissed him
not at the end but at the beginning
I would have lived that night intensively
I would have told him
that he was my dream
funny, smart and polite
a gentleman all the way
sigh..
it was just that one chance
he made me happy
he left, never to be heard again
for one night
I was his lost princess
and life was great.

Lsst words to Jo

It took me so long
to figure you out
Seven months that I won´t get back
your deep blue eyes
your winner smile
it seems so far away
nearly a year since I last saw you
our mediocre rondevouz
your cold and detached self
it was too much
too much to bare.


I learned to value my time
to value myself
God, You were a mistake
you gave me nothing
but tears and pain.

I bet you are still the same
a fix everytime you feel something
to make you unsensible
a cigarrette to calm the nerves
yes, we were pathetic together
Now, you´re pathetic alone.
Cheers to what we had
My dear, one thing I have clear
I don´t want a mediocre lover
that gives me nothing
I want passion and love
fire in heart
joy in my soul
ALL those things, you are not.

Cheers to the bad!

Cheers to the bad
cheers to the worst.
I dodged a bullet
luck is on my side
Somehow life got better
the moon shines with all the stars
it has never been a better night
a glass of scotch
and new perspectives
finally a good hand
royal flush to show off
I won
to the amaze of some.

Call me

Every minute in every hour
for the last day
my only thought is you
I crave for you
if you could call me
and say, you love me
you miss me
as much as I do
that would make me so happy
The silence is killing
always says more than words.
the wind whispers
rumours
perhaps I need more silence
to accept
You don´t want me
you don´t need me
and love was my illusion
never on your plans.

Mediocre words

Tell me again how you feel about me
use those mediocre words, you´re so fond of
say you like me, that I´m okay
pretty but sarcastic
talented but poor
not good enough
say no more

Tell me again, how you feel about me
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say, you want me
that I am nice
but you can not make promises
that I shouldn´t have expectations of you

Tell me again, how you feel about me
please, I beg you
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say, that I´m unemployed
a single mom like it was a sin.
or even better, stare at me with pity
because so far, I think
that´s all I can inspire on you
pity and lust
peculiar combination.

Tell me again, how you feel about me
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say them loud and clear
so it hurts me deep enough every time
until, all I once felt for you..
it´s gone.

Umbrella & raincoat

You used like getting wet
the rain didn´t bother you
You did not wear a raincoat
we used to share my umbrella

Suddenly, you had a change of heart
no more fun in the rain
taking risks
 getting a cold
or just paddling puddles
dancing like no one is watching
oh, no
You heart changed
then it was only an umbrella and raincoat
to be out
safe, safe, safe
no more puddles
no more getting wet,
naughty, naughty, naughty
let´s be safe.

A tear rolled down my cheek
then I knew
your heart really changed
perhaps for ever
taking away, the boy
that used love getting me wet.

Silence

Tell me in a whisper
Tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies

sleep with one eye open
kiss my lips
stare at me
like I´m going mad
any moment now

Tell me with a whisper
tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies

Your silence is a sign
there is something locked
another secret for me to find
what could it be?
wonder and wonder

tell me with a whisper
tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies