Mediocre words

Tell me again how you feel about me
use those mediocre words, you´re so fond of
say you like me, that I´m okay
pretty but sarcastic
talented but poor
not good enough
say no more

Tell me again, how you feel about me
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say, you want me
that I am nice
but you can not make promises
that I shouldn´t have expectations of you

Tell me again, how you feel about me
please, I beg you
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say, that I´m unemployed
a single mom like it was a sin.
or even better, stare at me with pity
because so far, I think
that´s all I can inspire on you
pity and lust
peculiar combination.

Tell me again, how you feel about me
use those mediocre words you´re so fond of
say them loud and clear
so it hurts me deep enough every time
until, all I once felt for you..
it´s gone.

Umbrella & raincoat

You used like getting wet
the rain didn´t bother you
You did not wear a raincoat
we used to share my umbrella

Suddenly, you had a change of heart
no more fun in the rain
taking risks
 getting a cold
or just paddling puddles
dancing like no one is watching
oh, no
You heart changed
then it was only an umbrella and raincoat
to be out
safe, safe, safe
no more puddles
no more getting wet,
naughty, naughty, naughty
let´s be safe.

A tear rolled down my cheek
then I knew
your heart really changed
perhaps for ever
taking away, the boy
that used love getting me wet.

Silence

Tell me in a whisper
Tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies

sleep with one eye open
kiss my lips
stare at me
like I´m going mad
any moment now

Tell me with a whisper
tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies

Your silence is a sign
there is something locked
another secret for me to find
what could it be?
wonder and wonder

tell me with a whisper
tell me with a sigh
what your heart longs
what your mind denies

Alone like always

The time passes
tick, tock,
alone in a corner
like an old toy
forgotten there
today it feels
like the world
turned cold
colder than before
the time passes
tick, tock
still my voice echo
hello? hello?
anyone there.
dead silence replies.

In pieces

Tears run down my cheek

wish you were here

to talk to me

to make me laugh

to put my pieces together

but you are not

not a word

not a call

nothing at all

the distance is killing

your coldness

Tears run down my cheek

wish you were here

to tell me

I should not wait for you

because you do not care

simply I am nothing to you.

That word

Could I use that word?
it feels so odd
it feels so good
It feels like I need you
when I don´t
Could I use that word~?
your kisses are sweet
full of fire too.
I´m burning.
Could I use that word?
my body vibrates on your hands
I crumble in your embrace
every particle of me wants you
in me.
Could I use that word?
am I allowed?
to feel so much
to want you with such intensity

Another day

Today should be especial
it is a day to celebrate
to be happy and great
Today should be especial
but it is not
it is just another day
according to your calendar
no presents or cards to give
no love to send and recieve
just a day,
to work and fight in the field
But
Today should be especial
but it is not at the end
because you are not here
and you don't know
that just a call
just a visit
would have made the difference: